Whoa! Pilipinas ng Datu’s Tribe

19 03 2008

Whoa! Pilipinas
Datu’s Tribe

Napakarami pang kagiliw-giliw na mga bagay na maipapamalas sa bayan ko na maaaring hindi nyo nakita nung kayo’y unang bumisita rito.
Kaya’t halina’t tuklasin ang ilan sa mga kaganapan at tanawin na higit na makapaglalarawan sa mga hindi binabanderang aspeto ng
Whoa! Pilipinas

Nangingibang-bayan ang aming masisipag at matatalino
Ang pangunahing eksport nami’y nagugutom na mga desperado
Kinabukasan ng nakararami’y sinasalalay sa Lotto
At ang mga pag-asa ni Pepe’y tumitira ng rugby sa kanto

Whoa! Pilipinas

Umiimport kami ng mga binabasurang produkto
Mga mamamahayag nag-eendorso ng alak, gamot at shampoo
May mga titser na nagbebenta ng insurance, damit at tocino
Karaniwang pasahod kasi’y sapat lang bumuhay ng aso

Whoa! Pilipinas

Ang bagong relihiyon ng masa ay tele-pantasya
Kaya mga artista dito’y mga pulitiko rin at vice-versa
Andaming kampon ni Bonifacio na nasa center na ng mga elitista
Na nagiging tambayan ng mga bagong burgis na dating aktibista

Whoa! Pilipinas

Galamay ng  sindikato ang mga pulis at sundalo
Nagiging congressman ang mga sugarol at babaero
Pwedeng-pwedeng maging milyonaryo sa sweldo mo sa gobyerno
At umuupo sa pwesto mga di naman nananalo

Halina’t bumisita
Whoa! Pilipinas
Halina’t bumisita
Whoa! Pilipinas
Nang inyo nang makita
Mga di ninyo nakita 

Halina’t bumisita
Whoa! Pilipinas
Halina’t bumisita
Whoa! Pilipinas
Nang inyo nang makita
Mga di pinapakita sa inyo

Mga di pinapakita
sa inyo.




Post Women’s Day LGBT post

12 03 2008

Got this from Milky’s blog. I’m not a member of the third sex myself but I do have lots of friends and comrades who are and it just sickens me to learn that many people still do not recognize that members of the LGBT community are human beings who have rights too.

Read on.

I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everyday

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

I am the man who fears that I will never be able to be myself, to be free of this secret because I won’t risk loosing my family and friends.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don’t believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends I’m a lesbian, because they constantly make fun of them.

I am the boy tied to a fence, beaten to a bloody pulp and left to die because two straight men wanted to “teach me a lesson”




“After your picture fades and darkness has turned to gray”

7 03 2008

Nakita ko kanina sa pagitan ng FC at AS yung tarp ng Monico Atienza Lecture Series. Namimiss ko na naman si Sir Nic. Ang tikas nya lang dun sa litrato nya sa tarp, masaya, nakangiti. Ganoon ko gusto maalala si Sir, yung malakas pa sya, at madalas pa kaming pagsabihan tungkol sa iba’t ibang bagay. Sabi nga ng tula ni Sir Edel "the illusion must persist."  *Sigh*

For more nostalgia, ire-repost ko dito ang isang lumang tula ni Sir Edel na sinulat para kay Sir Nic right after nung dalhin sya sa ospital:

Lifewatch
(For Monico Atienza)
by Edel Garcellano

I
A day before Christmas
& he lies comatose
at Mary Chiles.
Is it a way of forgetting
how long he has waged
war against the empire,
or the body now refuses
what the mind perseveres?
He doesn’t even know
he’s taking a long nap -
Something probably
he has dreamed of
after all those exhausting years.
His friends keep vigil.
That’s all they can do.
If only the gates of the universe
will open & disgorge
angels to tell them
the real score.
But his circle is used to waiting:
A revolution is a handiwork
of patience.
It will go on without Nick.
But it’s impossible to imagine
the future without him.

II
He is not your kind of poet.
His language smells
of the elemental earth,
wind & fire
& harvest of fruit trees
by men & women huddled
at the edge of the land
talking of the coming of the rain.
He knows the city
like the palm of his hands
but he wouldn’t text
of the dark alleys
& the secret meetings
of angry hearts
who defy the state holocaust…
He doesn’t have to write his poems,
really.
He lives them anyway.
He is not your kind of poet.

III
Too light is the crown
on the heads
of young bucks
who croon about their secret pains;
too cheap is the applause
of state lackeys that grates their
ears;
& too brittle
are the plaques that adorn their walls.
Poetry takes a long, long time.
Like life itself.
A neat lesson for those
who claim the title
so quickly, so easily.

IV
He has an eye for beauty,
of course
but he would quip about it
in a low voice
as if such were a difficult struggle…
He would laugh,
as though to rub an aching bone
of impossible desires.
Does he know the limits
of his passion?
But his persistence
to change the order of things
envelopes all.

V
The prognosis is grim:
The damage is extensive;
he’ll be a vegetable
if he survives.
She assures that a fund drive
would be initiated by comrades &
friends…
Yes, it’s flailing at the moon.
If God is history
there must be something about it
that escapes our mortal reasoning.

VI
The rememberers
who turn tears into guns
& words into a hand
over our hearts
dare not utter
a word of comfort nor pain:
Silence is all
before so much grief.

VII
How does one weigh a life?
"As heavy as a mountain,
as light as a feather?"
The state will not honor him.
The imperialists & fascists
will shrug their shoulders.
The academe will sigh in relief.
His friends will huddle in a corner
thinking among themselves
how brief is life
when nights are long
& sleep does not come.

VIII
He stirs from his deep sleep,
as though the waves
that carry him floating on the river
Lethe
inside his head
have tickled his ears.
But he’s not listening.
The Gods are merciful.

IX
(Nexus)
He explains,
as though before a jury,
why he couldn’t make it
to Mary Chiles:
"It is not," he avers,"so much
the fear of setting foot
at the hospital
where he would smell the strange
eucalyptus fragrance
of death
as the terror that he couldn’t handle
seeing him
at his most vulnerable:"
O Schodenfreude!
————————————————-
He missed his father’s
death throes by a few hours.
But probably it was by some crazy
design:
He sees him still very much alive
in his mind.
The illusion must persist

Women’s day na pala bukas. Sana makasama ako sa mob (kung maaga akong makakabalik galing sa errand ko).




Sa Pilipinas kong mahal

6 03 2008

Doon Po Sa Amin
(Jess Santiago)

Doon po sa amin, bayan ng San Roque
May nagkatuwaan, apat na pulubi
Sumayaw ang pilay, kumanta ang pipi,
Nanood ang bulag, nakinig ang bingi

Ayayaya-ayayayayayayayayayay ayayaayayayay

Doon po sa amin madalas dumalaw ang mga sakuna
Tagtuyot, tagbagyo, taggutom, at lindol, kudeta at baha
Pero kahit anong sakunang dumating kami’y laging handa
Nakahanda kami sapagkat sanay na sa buhay kawawa.


May sakuna’t wala, wala kaming tubig at wala ring ilaw
Tuwang-tuwa kami sakaling ang brownout ay sampung oras lang
Ang mga kolektor ng aming basura ay handang dumalaw
Silay parang parol na nakikita lang tuwing kapaskuhan.

Doon po sa amin ang mga pinuno’y may isang salita
Ika nga’y mayroong palabra de honor kung sila’y magwika
Nakahanda sila na bayarang lahat ang utang ng bansa
Pati kaluluwa, basta’t di kanila pagkat wala sila, ay handang isangla

Doon po sa amin ang inaalmusal puro alingasngas
Sa tanghali naman ang ulam po namin ay balitang gasgas
Pagdating ng gabi ang aming hapunan ay panay buladas
Meron pang matamis na syete at tsismis bilang panghimagas


Doon po sa amin ang sundalo’t pulis saksakan ng tapang
Sa tapang ng apog, sa tapang ng hiya ay walang kapantay
Nakahanda sila na lipuling lahat ang mga kriminal
Palibhasa’y sila ang utak ng krimen kaya sila-sila ang nagpapatayan

Hoy…

Sa among negosyo kanang import-export pinaka-dako’g kita
Imported ang tanan nga mga appliance, pagkaon, sinena
Imported ang utok, ispokening dollar, hot na hot mag-abroad
Pang export quality ang among babayi ug among labor force

Ambot nimo…

Di sa pagyayabang sa lahat po yata ng bansa sa mundo
Ang amin pong bayan ang pinaka-handa’t sobrang pasensyoso
Sapagkat kung hindi, paanong tatagal sa sistemang ito?
Ang pinaka-grabeng trahedya sa mundo’y ang aming gobyerno

No, no, no, no, no…

Tunay nga pong kami laging nakhaanda sa mga sakuna
Nakahanda kaming magtiis ng hirap, magdasal, lumuha
Ang problema’y kapag sa pagiging handa kami ay magsawa
Pag nangyari iyon,
Humanda nang lahat, humanda nang lahat, humanda nang lahat, 
Humanda nang lahat ang dapat maghanda!




See for Yourself

4 03 2008

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UPD Fraternity Hazing Pictures

UP Diliman daw ito, I got the link from a fellow UP student

Friends have been telling me that these pictures do not matter at all at hindi naman daw dapat ikagulat, dahil choice naman daw ng mga neophyte na ito na pumasok sa isang fraternity at alam naman ng lahat na kahit saang frat naman ay meron talagang hazing rites na pagdadaanan bago ka tuluyang tanggapin. Pero, it doesn’t change the fact na illegal ang gawaing ito at hindi talaga dapat ginagawa in the first place.

Nakakadismayang makita na pati ba naman mga matatanda (supposedly mas mature at mas may alam) ay nakikisali pa sa ganitong klase ng senseless violence. Ang tatanda na eh hindi pa nagtanda.

Ang isa pang nakakadismaya, nanalong chairperson ng student council ang isang prominent member ng frat na ito. Goodluck na lang talaga sa UP.

See also Kenneth Guda’s blog post regarding the issue.




peyborit shoutout

14 02 2008

"You will not
see a statue of me anywhere, nor a school with my name, nor a street,
nor a little town, nor any type of personality cult because we have not
taught our people to believe, but to think, to reason out"

                                                                                                -Fidel Castro




Music When the LIghts Go Out

15 01 2008

The Libertines

Is it cruel or kind not to speak my mind,
and to lie to you rather than hurt you?

Well I’ll confess all of of my sins
after several large gins
but still I’ll hide from you,
hide what’s inside from you
.

And alarm bells ring
when you say your heart still sings
when you’re with me.
Won’t you please forgive me?

But I no longer hear the music
Oh no no no no no

And all the memories of the pubs
and the clubs and the drugs and the tubs
we shared together,
Will stay with me forever.

But all the highs and the lows
and the to’s and the fro’s,
They left me dizzy,
Oh won’t you please forgive me
I no longer hear the music

Oh no no no no

Well I no longer hear the music when the lights go out,
Love goes cold in the shades of doubt
The strange fate in my mind is all too clear
.
Music when the lights come on
The girl I thought I knew has gone,
And with her my heart had disappeared…

Well I no longer hear the music
Oh no no no no no
All the memories of the fights and the nights
and the blue lights, all the kites
We flew together,
I thought they’d fly forever.

But all the highs and the lows
and the to’s and the fro’s
They left me dizzy,
Oh won’t you forgive me

But I no longer hear the music
Oh no no no no no

Music when the lights go out
Love goes cold in the shades of doubt
The strange fate in my mind it’s all too clear.

Music when the lights come on
The girl I thought I knew has gone
And With her my heart had disappeared

Well I no longer hear the music
Oh no no no no no
And no longer hear the music




Si Sir Nic

6 12 2007

Noong isang araw (Dec. 5) pa dapat ang post na ito. Kaso, nagloko ang space bar ng computer namin, nagluluksa din yata’t ayaw gumana. Ayun tuloy, late na ito.

**********

Isang napakalungkot na balita ang dumating sa akin sa napaka-impersonal na paraan: nagtext ang isang kaibigan na namayapa na daw si Sir Monico Atienza kaninang alas-6 ng hapon matapos ang halos isang taong pagiging comatose dahil sa sakit na kanser.

Bago pa lang akong estudyante sa UP ay naririnig ko na ang pangalan ni Sir Nic.Madalas sabihin ng mga kasama sa organisasyon na "kulang ang UP experience mo kapag di mo naging propesor si Sir Nic." Hindi dahil sa mataas sya magbigay ng grado o dahil maluwag sya sa disiplina (quite the opposite, in fact, pahirapan makakuha ng mataas na grado sa kanya at ayaw na ayaw nya ng iresponsableng estudyante). Unfortunately, hindi ako nabigyan ng pagkakataong maging propesor si Sir Nic, kadalasan ay hindi kasi kailangan sa kurso ko ang mga subject na tinuturo nya. Gayumpaman,madalas ko pa rin napapakinggan at nakakausap si sir noon, lalo pa’t lagi syang iniimbitahang speaker sa iba’t-ibang forum o pag-aaral na inilulunsad ng organisasyon. Mabait si Sir Nic, kahit pa kung minsan ay nakakatakot syang lapitan dahil sa kanyang mood swings. Bukas ang kanyang opisina (madalas, pati wallet) sa lahat ng nangangailangan ng tulong niya. Madali syang makuhanan ng interview dahil mahilig syang magkwento, lalo pa’t tungkol sa karanasan niya bilang member ng SCAUP at KM noong dekada 70. Marami syang payo at pangaral sa amin, kadalasan tungkol sa organizing work namin sa eskwelahan, pero minsan kahit sa ibang bagay may mga paalala sya.Naalala ko pa noong minsang napansin nya yung skin allergies ko at sinabihan nya akong tigilan ko na daw ang pagkain ng karne at mag-gulay at prutas na lang. Hindi man nya ako nakumbinsing mag-healthy living at di ko man sya naging propesor sa isang pormal na set-up,marami pa rin akong natutunan kay Sir. Nananatiling inspirasyon sa akin ang buhay nya: kung paanong hindi sya bumitaw sa kanyang mga prinsipyo sa kabila ng hirap ng gawain. Sa tingin ko, talagang naisabuhay nya ang kasabihang “simpleng pamumuhay, puspusang pakikibaka”. Madaling sabihin ito pero tulad ng pagpapanibagong-hubog ay napaka-hirap i-actualize. Pero si Sir, isang mahusay na manunulat at kritiko ay hindi naghangad ng kahit anong papuri o premyo para sa kanyang mga likha. At sa tingin ko, para sa isang manunulat (lalo pa’t ang pagsulat ay isang napaka-individualistic, at aminin man natin o hindi, ay isang egoistic na activity) kahanga-hanga talaga na hindi isinakripisyo ni Sir ang principles nya para sa kung anuman. Kung kaya naman, talagang nakakapanlumo ang mga nangyari, ang pagkakasakit nya, at ngayon nga ay ang pagkamatay niya. Isang malaking kawalan talaga: ng isang napakabait na tatay (madalas sabihin ni Sir na inaalagaan nyang parang mga anak ang mga estudyante nya), kaibigang madalas magbigay ng payo at kritisismo, exceptional na guro (lagi kong naaalala sa tuwing mag-aRTR kami sa klase nya, laging magalaw ang kamay ni Sir: malikot syang magpaliwanag, para bang ang dami nyang gusting i-emphasize at nag-uunahan ang mga ito sa paglabas) at syempre, isang mahusay na kasama. At kahit malungkot ang araw na ito, sisikapin kong maging matatag.  Sa pagkakakilala ko kay Sir, hindi nya naman siguro gugustuhing makitang ngumangawa lang kami sa pagpanaw nya. Mas mabuti pang sundin ang lagi nyang payo: sa kabila ng mga pagsubok, magpatuloy sa pakikibaka.

Kay Sir Nic, mami-miss po namin kayo. Wag po kayo mag-alala, tuloy ang laban!




Tutugtog

3 12 2007
ni Bong Ramillo

Pigtas na naman ang isa pang kwerdas
sa kanyang gitara na lumang-luma at puno ng gasgas.
Ingat na ingat isa pa’y kinabit
Tunog ay pinilit.
Dahan-dahan habang nangangatal
at uunat na rin sinulid na bakal.

Ang musikerong bulag ay muling tutugtog
muling naghintay ng baryang huhulog
sa bawat kalansing ngingiting bahagya
at bilang tugon, bibilis ang tipa.

Para kanino ba inihahandog
ang tila dibdiban na pagtutugtog?

Para kanino malungkot na kanta
ang tagulaylay ba’y para sa kanya?

At siya’y tutugtog, tutugtog, tutugtog.
Kahit sa tutugtog ay di mabubusog.
Ang tanging alam himig na bilasa
Tanging pag-asa, tao’y di magsawa.

Pigtas na naman ang isa pang kwerdas
sa kanyang gitara na lumang-luma at puno ng gasgas
Buntong-hininga at pagngingitngit
Wala nang kapalit.
Dahan-dahan habang nangangatal,
Siya’y tutugtog.

:(



The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock

1 12 2007

The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock
  T.S. Eliot
 
  S’io credesse che mia risposta fosse
A persona che mai tornasse al mondo,
Questa fiamma staria senza piu scosse.
Ma perciocche giammai di questo fondo
Non torno vivo alcun, s’i’odo il vero,
Senza tema d’infamia ti rispondo.
 
 
LET us go then, you and I, 
When the evening is spread out against the sky 
Like a patient etherised upon a table; 
Let us go, through certain half-deserted streets, 
The muttering retreats         5
Of restless nights in one-night cheap hotels 
And sawdust restaurants with oyster-shells: 
Streets that follow like a tedious argument 
Of insidious intent 
To lead you to an overwhelming question …         10
Oh, do not ask, “What is it?” 
Let us go and make our visit. 
 
In the room the women come and go 
Talking of Michelangelo. 
 
The yellow fog that rubs its back upon the window-panes,         15
The yellow smoke that rubs its muzzle on the window-panes 
Licked its tongue into the corners of the evening, 
Lingered upon the pools that stand in drains, 
Let fall upon its back the soot that falls from chimneys, 
Slipped by the terrace, made a sudden leap,         20
And seeing that it was a soft October night, 
Curled once about the house, and fell asleep. 
 
And indeed there will be time 
For the yellow smoke that slides along the street, 
Rubbing its back upon the window-panes;         25
There will be time, there will be time 
To prepare a face to meet the faces that you meet; 
There will be time to murder and create, 
And time for all the works and days of hands 
That lift and drop a question on your plate;         30
Time for you and time for me, 
And time yet for a hundred indecisions, 
And for a hundred visions and revisions, 
Before the taking of a toast and tea. 
 
In the room the women come and go         35
Talking of Michelangelo. 
 
And indeed there will be time 
To wonder, “Do I dare?” and, “Do I dare?” 
Time to turn back and descend the stair, 
With a bald spot in the middle of my hair—         40
[They will say: “How his hair is growing thin!”] 
My morning coat, my collar mounting firmly to the chin, 
My necktie rich and modest, but asserted by a simple pin— 
[They will say: “But how his arms and legs are thin!”] 
Do I dare         45
Disturb the universe? 
In a minute there is time 
For decisions and revisions which a minute will reverse. 
 
For I have known them all already, known them all:— 
Have known the evenings, mornings, afternoons,         50
I have measured out my life with coffee spoons; 
I know the voices dying with a dying fall 
Beneath the music from a farther room. 
  So how should I presume? 
 
And I have known the eyes already, known them all—         55
The eyes that fix you in a formulated phrase, 
And when I am formulated, sprawling on a pin, 
When I am pinned and wriggling on the wall, 
Then how should I begin 
To spit out all the butt-ends of my days and ways?         60
  And how should I presume? 
 
And I have known the arms already, known them all— 
Arms that are braceleted and white and bare 
[But in the lamplight, downed with light brown hair!] 
It is perfume from a dress         65
That makes me so digress? 
Arms that lie along a table, or wrap about a shawl. 
  And should I then presume? 
  And how should I begin?
      .      .      .      .      . 
Shall I say, I have gone at dusk through narrow streets         70
And watched the smoke that rises from the pipes 
Of lonely men in shirt-sleeves, leaning out of windows?… 
 
I should have been a pair of ragged claws 
Scuttling across the floors of silent seas.
      .      .      .      .      . 
And the afternoon, the evening, sleeps so peacefully!         75
Smoothed by long fingers, 
Asleep … tired … or it malingers, 
Stretched on the floor, here beside you and me. 
Should I, after tea and cakes and ices, 
Have the strength to force the moment to its crisis?         80
But though I have wept and fasted, wept and prayed, 
Though I have seen my head [grown slightly bald] brought in upon a platter, 
I am no prophet—and here’s no great matter; 
I have seen the moment of my greatness flicker,
 
And I have seen the eternal Footman hold my coat, and snicker,         85
And in short, I was afraid.
 
And would it have been worth it, after all, 
After the cups, the marmalade, the tea, 
Among the porcelain, among some talk of you and me, 
Would it have been worth while,         90
To have bitten off the matter with a smile, 
To have squeezed the universe into a ball 
To roll it toward some overwhelming question, 
To say: “I am Lazarus, come from the dead, 
Come back to tell you all, I shall tell you all”—         95
If one, settling a pillow by her head, 
  Should say: “That is not what I meant at all. 
  That is not it, at all.” 
 
And would it have been worth it, after all, 
Would it have been worth while,         100
After the sunsets and the dooryards and the sprinkled streets, 
After the novels, after the teacups, after the skirts that trail along the floor— 
And this, and so much more?— 
It is impossible to say just what I mean! 
But as if a magic lantern threw the nerves in patterns on a screen:         105
Would it have been worth while 
If one, settling a pillow or throwing off a shawl, 
And turning toward the window, should say: 
  “That is not it at all, 
  That is not what I meant, at all.”
      .      .      .      .      .         110
No! I am not Prince Hamlet, nor was meant to be; 
Am an attendant lord, one that will do 
To swell a progress, start a scene or two, 
Advise the prince; no doubt, an easy tool, 
Deferential, glad to be of use,         115
Politic, cautious, and meticulous; 
Full of high sentence, but a bit obtuse; 
At times, indeed, almost ridiculous— 
Almost, at times, the Fool. 
 
I grow old … I grow old …         120
I shall wear the bottoms of my trousers rolled. 
 
Shall I part my hair behind? Do I dare to eat a peach? 
I shall wear white flannel trousers, and walk upon the beach. 
I have heard the mermaids singing, each to each. 
 
I do not think that they will sing to me.         125
 
I have seen them riding seaward on the waves 
Combing the white hair of the waves blown back 
When the wind blows the water white and black. 
 
We have lingered in the chambers of the sea 
By sea-girls wreathed with seaweed red and brown         130
Till human voices wake us, and we drown.